|New Lj Username
||[27 Nov 2005|11:11pm]
This is probably my Last Post on this Username.
For those of you that still may read this journal and or have missed me. I have gone over to another livejournal username of which some of you may already be on. I have been posting by that name for a while now and don't see myself coming back to 13dreams anymore...
While I will keep this journal open as an archive, I will not be posting in it anymore.
I won't post the new username in this journal so If you would like to keep reading my posts reply back to this journal...
I will add you to the new journals friends list.
if you are a reader who doesn't have a live journal and would like to know the new livejournal username please email me
firstname.lastname@example.org I will email you back with the info...
|In need of a Cricket phone?
||[25 Feb 2005|06:47pm]
Does Anyone have a used Cricket phone in working condition that they would be willing to sell for cheep or give away, or even let me borrow for a short time?
I am looking to switch to a cricket phone to save money on my phone bills but cannot afford to buy a new phone at the moment.... email me or reply to this post... thanks.
||[11 Jan 2005|03:36pm]
There are times when I look back at my former life and wonder if it was all a dream. Then I look at my present state and realize that the scars still remain. There are many old patterns that I am trying to break free of lately... I try not to make the same choices as before. Some paterns are harder to break... some patterns have easily become warning signs of bad situations and so its easy to stear clear of them.
Lately I've been thinking a lot about what I want to accomplish over the next couple of years... and while I still don't have a clear idea as to what I plan on doing, I have seen a lot of possible roads before me... my problem is that I've yet to find the on ramp to the superhighway of multiple possibilities that will take me to all the places I want to go.
A while ago.. I pulled off the road...by choice... and found myself in a congested round about... with many lanes... lots of construction, and no pathways out of the circle.
However, I know the construction is only temporary... and eventually a road will open up that will cut through the crap and take me out of the circle and onto the life path I chose for myself before even stepping foot onto this planet.
In a few months I will have claimed bankruptcy, and I should have a working form of transportation very soon as well, should all work out as hoped for... It will bring a lot of closure to the past for me...
With that final step I feel I can change lanes inside the roundabout that I trapped myself in over the past few years and finally move on... leaving the old paterns behind... and then I can look at what possibilities lie ahead for me.
I am not able to see so far ahead right now however, so I take it day by day. Moment by Moment... Its important not to look to far ahead... and stay as present as I can. For now there is plenty of work to do... I can save the future for its proper time.
The only thing that I am promising myself, is a huge party for when everything clears up... with a ritualistic burial of the old life... and celebration of freedom.
||[10 Jan 2005|10:39pm]
Attention all new souls
Welcome to earth
I hope you enjoy your stay
please buckle your umbilical cords
and put yourself in the fetal position
this can be a bumpy ride
for those of you on return trips
you know the drill by now
please leave your old baggage at the door
and get ready to have your asses kicked by Karma
I know what you all must be thinking by now
Who am I? What am I?
where the hell am I?
well I promise that you will have plenty of time
to figure all that stuff out after your born
although you never will truely figure it all out until your afterlife...
and even then... some of you still wont get it.
hense all you return trippers
I see a lot of familiar faces out there.
I guess someone failed life 101 AGAIN!
Please... I beg of you...
this time... do get it right...
The earth is crowded enough as it is.
||[05 Jan 2005|02:36am]
This is reality
This is not a dream
as it is,
as I am,
as we are.
drowing in the liquid sky
falling to the
I watch the ceiling crumble
and wrap myself up
in a blanket of starlight
I see the fog decending
my vision starts bluring
I close my eyes
and take the final leap
I am born
and I am blind
I am mute
and I am dying
I am trapped
inside the foundations
that I built
inside my mind
I want to break
this magnificently decorated
eggshell of a soul
and pour out the light
that I see inside
we are kept in darkness
lost in pain
being eaten by the silence
of suffering the game.
this is a dream
this is not reality
as it is
as it was
as we are
finding our way
out of this illusion
||[30 Dec 2004|06:45pm]
If all goes well... I will be working in a new project at my job soon... and it fucking rocks.
||[26 Dec 2004|04:16pm]
I now have internet on my own pc again... took me long enough... one year damnit! Well at least I no longer have to use Roberts computer and I can now catch up with some old friends on irc.
||[02 Dec 2004|06:08pm]
Its hard enough knowing he is gone... its harder to read his livejournal friends page right now...
its filled with so much emotion I am crying so hard right now.
I cant read anymore... I'm done for the night...
I'm going to write something later about him. When I can think straight.
thanks for the pic forge.
|Good bye Chad Miller,
||[02 Dec 2004|03:27pm]
was MURDERED the other day...
I just found out ... you can read the story here...
You were just 15 when I met you...
Your life was cut short
You were an inspiration to me.
you had SO much potential that it hurts to even look at the picture of you in the article.
You deserve a better story than just "he was one of those gothic types."
no... YOU WERE AN AMAZING PERSON, A TRULY FUCKED UP INDIVIDUAL, AN AMAZING ARTIST, MUSICIAN, AND FREE THINKER, AND SOMEONE WENT AND DID THE UNTHINKABLE AND TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US.
You will be missed by all... friends family, and fans alike.
You may be gone... but your music will live on.
by the way this site is HOSTED ON GOTBLACK...ATTENTION JOI... CAN WE DO SOMETHING TO ARCHIVE IT?
Its just not right that it had to happen this way.
||[23 Nov 2004|02:52pm]
It seems everyone across the nation and their mothers are throwing a "nightmare before christmas party" this year. Each one sounds like they are going to be lots of fun... but I have to admit ... I'm tired of reading all the invites that keep getting endlessly posted on peoples journals.
This is NOT to say that I don't respect the people in the scene that are willing to go out of their way to throw these shindigs.. I do.. I know how much work and pain and money and time you put into it. Some of you I know personally ... and this is not a judgement towards you. I love you all for working so diligently to keep our scene alive and give us spooky things to do.
I also love the movie... got the tshirt for gods sake... I am just making a general observation about the many different flyers I've seen for the SAME theme party.. in different towns and states across the nation. Its making me wonder what started the nightmare craze. Was there a re-release of the movie? Is this an anniversary year for it? Are we all going to halloweentown in a handbasket?
Stay tooned for further instructions should hell explode and oogie boogie himself become a dj at one of these things.
|words.... words.... words...
||[17 Nov 2004|06:16pm]
I've been stuggling with a certain song for 4 years now... 4 YEARS... i've played it on my guitar, and sang along.
4 years, I hummed the missing bars, or tried to fill them with something meaningful.
4 years, I couldn't finish it.
now... I have "4 more years" to get it done and GET IT OUT!
Lets hope I can figure out exactly what I'm missing.
Its something that I've been writing in my rage at humanities inability to unite.
and our own governments incompentency and idiocy, and the religious rights absolute hipocracy.
at the injustice of innocents who are killed everyday, children, mothers, fathers, ours, and theirs
and the judgements placed upon those who only just want to live as they please.
I'm tired of writing it... I'm tired of humming the bars and not having words to them.
I have a song inside me and its screaming to get out...
Maybe ... I'm afraid of the potency of the lyrics.. at the truth within the words.
I really do not know what is taking me so long.
I think its time I sat down and tried to finish it again.
I can no longer sit back, I can't let this song die.
I've got to hope that somewhere it will touch the heart of one or more people...
and that it will start a ripple in the waters of change.
Maybe thats where I need to start looking.
... the words will come... they always do...
until then ... i will keep searching.
||[15 Nov 2004|09:32pm]
This weekend was Fabulous... all around ...
Went to see a movie that made me cry... drinks with friends following***
fell asleep in my loves arms,*** and talked about new situations ***
Had breakfast with friends. ***
Relaxed and read a bit, Meditated, tried to calm my nerves a bit...
Then went out for tea and conversation with an absolutely amazing being*** ...um..wow!
(i'm such a girl!!!)
I have to say overall eventful, beautiful, relaxing, giggly, fun weekend.
*side note* ***
(ok.. The truth is ... I want to gush... I want to gush all over this post, and be overly sappy about the friends, lovers, gods, goddesses, and inspiring creatures I have in my life as of lately... but I wont go past wanting to gush because this is as much as your going to get from me tonight.)
Lets just suffice it to say that I love everyone right now.
Yeah its one of those days.
||[12 Nov 2004|07:44pm]
The current matrix in which we find ourselves, is about to shift into a darker period than we have seen in many years. It is imperative that we, as conscious enlightened beings, become like that of the stars in the heavens. Shining out upon the world, to light the pathways for those who are lost, that they may find their way back to themselves, back to their own luminescence, back to the doorway home.
|The REAL Directions for Tonight's Show
||[31 Jul 2004|07:06pm]
Paris Burning, tonight, 8 pm at
1056 Country Club Drive in Mesa
which is actually on the NW corner of Southern & Country Club
(despite my former assertions that it was on Dobson and Country Club... these two roads do not intersect... in this continuum, anyway)
|2 PARIS BURNING SHOWS IN A ROW!
||[27 Jul 2004|06:17pm]
This week only... get 2 paris burning shows... for the price of ONE!
Thats right all you Paris-ites out there... WERE PLAYING OUT THIS SATURDAY AND WERE NOT STOPPING TILL SUNDAY NIGHT!
WHERE CAN YOU GET THIS DEAL?
SATURDAY JULY 31ST
1056 Country Club Drive in Mesa
(ON DOBSON AND COUNTRY CLUB)
STARTING AT 8:00 PM
THIS SHOW IS
THEN COME SEE US PLAY WITH THE LAST DANCE AND SPECIAL GUESTS... THE ENDPARTY!!!
SUNDAY AUGUST 1ST
AT THE MASON JAR/KILLING JAR
2303 E. INDIAN SCHOOL RD. pHX
ALL AGES BAR WITH ID
TICKETS ARE : $10.00 at the door
(WOW 2 PARIS BURNING SHOWS IN 1 WEEKEND!)
OFFER ONLY VALID FOR A LIMITED TIME SO GET YOUR ASSES OUT OF YOUR HOUSE AND COME HAVE SOME FUN WITH US!!!! (THIS POST ILLEGAL IN THE STATE OF SOBERNESS)
|My job rocks again AND WE ARE HIRING!
||[27 Jul 2004|06:11pm]
Got moved into tempe finally... new call center... better pay... got my raise... and its only 15 min from where I live. Life is good ... for now. Still looking for better paying options but until then... I'm gonna milk it for what its worth.
I'm on the Cingular Wireless project now at Phase 2
We are hiring like the dickens right now... we need 500 NEW REPS by the end of august/mid sept...
So if you are looking for a job... go to that link above or go to http://www.phase2solutions.com
and apply online... make sure you note that the employee who refered you was me "michael cordova"
I'll get a referal bonus if you stay for a month or longer. =) Starting pay is $9.00 and if you are bilingual its 9.50 .... the job is inbound customer service for cingular wireless inc. Go check it out.
|Where does one start...
||[26 Jul 2004|06:01pm]
I have so many stories to tell... and not enough time to tell them all.
I miss being able to record my life here somewhat... and at the same time... I kinda prefer the privacy that comes with not posting as much... not to mention that I can actually tell my stories to friends several times over, in person, and they don't already know them due to having read my journal. *grin* I'm sure I will one day start posting again... and then I'll try to catch you all up on my latest and greatest thoughts.
I just have to say ... I love you all...
(yeah i'm a big sap lately, and its all her fault!)